Thursday, December 31, 2020

snapshots of a mystic dealing with prostate cancer and skin MRSA

Yesterday, the oncologist said that although a cat scan and a gamma ray bone scan showed the cancer had not spread into other organs or my bones, the cancer was too aggressive to try treat with radiation pellets inserted into my prostate. He said it's possible the cancer has gotten slightly outside the prostate, and the radiation beam will be directed to and just outside the prostate.

The oncologist inserted a saline gel between my rectum and prostate to separate them and make it less likely the radiation beam nicks the intestine. The oncologist then injected small gold particles into the prostate to make it easier to see the target with the X-ray machine. After the oncologist checks his work next week, to see if it went as he hoped, and some time passes for the gold to spread around, the radiation treatment will begin: 5 days a week, for 5 weeks. Show up at appointed time, lie on a table about ten minutes, leave and drive home.

Getting to this point was a saga, here's a short version.

I saw three options. Do nothing and let the cancer run its course. Have the prostate removed, which is major surgery followed by a long recovery. Have radiation therapy. Add to that a cranky bowel since 1969. 

The urologist who did the biopsy said, at my age, he thought surgery was best for me. The surgeon said the same. But, if I had radiation treatment, that closed the door to having the prostate removed. 

The surgeon said he would not operate unless a doctor examined my heart. I did not say dying in surgery, under anesthesia, is my first choice of how to depart.

A friend had several dreams that promoted removing the prostate, because of the toxic effect radiation would have on my angel-tuned body and psyche.

I was using a walk-in medical clinic and had trouble getting a primary care physician to take me as a new patient and examine me for surgery. A friend with connections pulled a string and got me into an highly-respected internist. 

While the internist examined me, he called the surgeon, who said what he needed from the internist, and that he had tried to steer me toward radiation because of my age. I did not say dying under anesthesia is my preference for departure.

The internist asked when I last had an EKG? I said it was administered by the internist who had started his medical group. That doctor died 20 years ago, and the EKG he administered was 20 years before that. The internist said I had just told him more about my medical history than I would ever want him to know. 

A medical tech did an EKG, which the internist studied and said it showed an abnormality on the left side of my heart. The internist scheduled a chemical stress test in January, because I don't have the stamina for an exercise stress test.

I did not tell the internist that he had before him a 78-year-old patient, who takes one prescribed med, Flomax, to increase urine flow, and how many 78-year-old people did he know taking only one prescribed med? 

Yet, I thought he was a very good doctor, trying his best to look after me. I felt the same about urologist, the surgeon, and the oncologist.

That night, I dreamed of St. John of the Cross having a long talk with me near Higgs Beach in Key West, but I didn't seem to be paying much attention. The saint then took me to where I had slept nights in tents across from Smathers Beach. Then, he said he was returning to Europe, where he lived. 

In 2003 and 2004, I slept nights in tents across from Smathers Beach and was plagued by recurring skin MRSA lesions. MRSA is a mutated strain of staphylococcus, which resists antibiotics. Surgery removed the initial three lesions, and I was put on antibiotics. More MRSA lesions came, which were treated with antibiotics. More MRSA legions came, which were treated with antibiotics. MRSA lesion below. Fatal, if not treated.

I knew the skin MRSA was rooted in my having poorly handled a relationship with a Key West  woman. I had been way too yang (hard, outward looking), and I needed to be a lot more yin (soft and inward looking). 

I was given many chances to right my course, and I kept screwing up. Finally, I did a few things that pleased the angels. Then, I had a dream that left me thinking I should take one day's dosage of the new antibiotic prescription and see if the angels would step in and take care of it. I did that. The MRSA lesion began to recede. It kept receding. It went away. That was medically impossible. 

I hoped radiation treatment and angels would produce a similar result with the prostate cancer. A woman friend reported being told by a woman in a dream that I had made the right choice.

In the1990s, I had quite a few intense, personal experiences with John of the Cross after a familiar voice said to me in my sleep, "With respect to St. John of the Cross, you haven't seen anything yet."

The straight arrow of Christian saints, Juan de la Cruz inwardly went directly to God, while he was harassed and then imprisoned and starved by the Spanish Inquisition. Juan did not complain, nor accuse this torturers. After Juan died, his corpse did not rot, he had turned himself into spiritual gold. Later, the Vatican canonized him.

The prostate cancer has spiritual roots, and how I handle what life brings my way might determine how the cancer treatment goes.


Tuesday, December 29, 2020

Jesus on mammon, Pharisees and lawyers

Goings on in the White House, Congress and America led to some some theological and legal research 😎.

Matthew 6:24
No one can serve two masters; for either he will hate the one and love the other, or else he will be loyal to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve God and mammon. 

Mammon - Wikipedia
Mammon /ˈmæmən/ in the New Testament of the Bible is commonly thought to mean money, material wealth, or any entity that promises wealth, and is associated with the greedy pursuit of gain.

Luke 11:37-54
37 When Jesus had finished speaking, a Pharisee invited him to eat with him; so he went in and reclined at the table. 38 But the Pharisee, noticing that Jesus did not first wash before the meal, was surprised. 39 Then the Lord said to him, “Now then, you Pharisees clean the outside of the cup and dish, but inside you are full of greed and wickedness. 40 You foolish people! Did not the one who made the outside make the inside also? 41 But give what is inside the dish to the poor, and everything will be clean for you. 42 “Woe to you Pharisees, because you give God a tenth of your mint, rue and all other kinds of garden herbs, but you neglect justice and the love of God. You should have practiced the latter without leaving the former undone. 43 “Woe to you Pharisees, because you love the most important seats in the synagogues and greetings in the marketplaces. 44 “Woe to you, because you are like unmarked graves, which men walk over without knowing it.”
45 One of the experts in the law answered him, “Teacher, when you say these things, you insult us also.”
46 Jesus replied, “And you experts in the law, woe to you, because you load people down with burdens they can hardly carry, and you yourselves will not lift one finger to help them. 47 “Woe to you, because you build tombs for the prophets, and it was your forefathers who killed them. 48 So you testify that you approve of what your forefathers did; they killed the prophets, and you build their tombs. 49 Because of this, God in his wisdom said, ‘I will send them prophets and apostles, some of whom they will kill and others they will persecute.’ 50 Therefore this generation will be held responsible for the blood of all the prophets that has been shed since the beginning of the world, 51 from the blood of Abel to the blood of Zechariah, who was killed between the altar and the sanctuary. Yes, I tell you, this generation will be held responsible for it all. 52 “Woe to you experts in the law, because you have taken away the key to knowledge. You yourselves have not entered, and you have hindered those who were entering.”
53 When Jesus left there, the Pharisees and the teachers of the law began to oppose him fiercely and to besiege him with questions, 54 waiting to catch him in something he might say.

Matthew 5:25
Agree with your adversary quickly, while you are in the way with him; lest at any time the adversary deliver you to the judge, and the judge deliver you to the officer, and you be cast into prison.

Monday, December 28, 2020

cosmic joke: $600 per American Covid relief bill

Facebook retorts to the cosmic joke: $600 per American Covid relief bill.

If you have seen where 75% of the money is going you need to look, $250/million to Palestinian economic aid. $500 million to Israeli defense, $10 million to gender studies in Pakistan, $1.3 BILLION to Egypt for military aid!!  $25 M. to the Smithsonian Institute to big a new museum..  Come on guys,  The list is 5,500 pages LONG with one page giving the American people $600.  Turn off ABC< NBC< CBS<CNN< All of them Watch the news from other countries, they are laughing at us!  They call it "The Covid Relief Bill" Congress is giving our $ away. This is not Blue or Red. Stand up as an American!

Stupid shit like this, is why I literally laugh right back in the face of every person ever who mocks me for voting Libertarian.

Right wing and left wing = same damned money hoarding bird

A Charlie Brown Xmas  sticker

And yet so many are still in denial.

The Covid relief bill was tagged upon the Omnibus spending bill not the reverse.
You need to understand what you’re talking about. Basically there was an end-of-the-year bill that the Covid relief was tagged on to not the other way around.

And he signed it today

Sloan Bashinsky
What does it matter, what the massive spending bill is called, or what was tagged onto what? America’s money needs to take care of suffering American people in these distressed times. They should be helped first, given everything they need. Cut, or scrap, everything else, including Congress and President Trump and VP Pence and Biden and Harris for not demanding it. 

Sloan Bashinsky
Turn off FOX, too.

Sunday, December 27, 2020

Perhaps "In guns we trust" should replace "In God we trust" on American money

Sancho Panza emailed a bunch of pro-gun, bash liberals stuff, and I emailed back some stuff I doubt pro-gun, bash liberals folks, or even liberals, give much thought.

I like this from Waldo... would like to see the response from liberals that want to disarm the country... I went to Snopes and, to my surprise, found this to be TRUE: 

Waldo sent: 
Please take time to read this and pay particular attention  to 
"A Little Gun History" about half way down
staggering numbers!
Why Grandpa carries a gun 
Why Carry a Gun?
My old Grandpa said to me, "Son, there comes a time in    every man's life when he stops bustin' knuckles and starts bustin' caps and usually it's when he becomes too old to take a whoopin'."
I don't carry a gun to kill people; I carry a gun to keep    from being killed.
I don't carry a gun because I'm evil; I carry a gun because I have lived long enough to see the evil in the World.
I don't carry a gun because I hate the government; I carry a gun because I understand the limitations of government.
I don't carry a gun because I'm angry; I carry a gun so that I don't have to spend the rest of my life hating myself for failing to be prepared.
I don't carry a gun because I want to shoot someone; I    carry a gun because I want to die at a ripe old age in my bed and not on a sidewalk somewhere tomorrow afternoon.
I don't carry a gun to make me feel like a man; I carry a gun because men know how to take care of themselves    and the ones they love.
I don't carry a gun because I feel inadequate; I carry a gun because unarmed and facing three armed thugs, I am inadequate.
I don't carry a gun because I love it; I carry a gun because I love life and the people who make it meaningful to me.
Police protection is an oxymoron: Free citizens must    protect themselves because police do not protect you from crime; they just investigate the crime after it happens and then call someone in to clean up the mess.
Personally, I carry a gun because I'm too young to die and too old to take a whoopin'!
In 1929, the Soviet Union established gun control:
From 1929 to 1953,  about 20 million dissidents,    unable to defend themselves, were rounded up and exterminated.
In 1911, Turkey established gun control:
From 1915 to 1917, 1.5 million Armenians, unable to defend themselves, were rounded up and exterminated.
Germany established gun control in 1938:
From 1939 to 1945, a total of 13 million Jews and others who were    unable to defend themselves were rounded up and exterminated.
China established gun control in 1935:
From 1948 to 1952, 20 million political dissidents, unable to defend themselves, were rounded up and exterminated.
Guatemala established gun control in 1964:
From 1964 to 1981, 100,000 Mayan Indians, unable to defend     themselves, were rounded up and exterminated.
Uganda  established gun control in 1970:
From 1971 to 1979, 300,000 Christians, unable to defend themselves, were rounded up and exterminated.
Cambodia established gun control in 1956:
From 1975 to 1977, one million educated people, unable to defend themselves, were rounded up and exterminated.    
56 million defenseless people were rounded up and exterminated in the 20th Century because of gun control.    

You won't see this data on the US evening news, or hear politicians disseminating this information.
Guns in the hands of honest citizens save lives and property and, yes, gun-control laws adversely affect only the law-abiding citizens.
With guns, we are 'citizens'; without them, we are 'subjects'.
During WW II, the Japanese decided not to invade   America because they knew most Americans were ARMED!
Gun owners in the USA are the largest armed forces in the World!
If you value your freedom, please spread this anti-gun    control message to all of your friends.
The purpose of fighting is to win. There is no possible    victory in defense.
The sword is more important than the shield and skill is more important than either.   
I'm a firm believer in the 2nd Amendment!  If you are too, please forward this.   If you're not a believer, please reconsider the true facts.  This is history; not what's being shown on TV, sanctioned by our leaders in Washington ..

I replied to Sancho:

I spent some time in Zurich, twice. My recollection is all Swiss men served in the Swiss Army for a while, the country was heavily armed, it had placed explosives in mountain passes, which would be detonated if Switzerland was invaded by another country. Hitler knew this and needed Switzerland's rail lines to transport his military to Italy and captured Jews back to Germany, so he worked out that deal with Switzerland. 
As pro-Trump and pro-gun as Waldo is, maybe he should move to Switzerland, where citizens are required to be in the "militia" and have proper training with firearms? That certainly does not happen in America, where just about anybody can get a gun, or two, or three, or ten, or twenty.

I have yet to meet a NRA fanatic, who actually seemed to have read the 2nd Amendment, which seems how the Swiss go about it: "A well regulated Militia, being necessary to the security of a free State, the right of the people to keep and bear Arms, shall not be infringed." 
I have never seen "well regulated Militia" in NRA hype, emphasis on "well regulated". What I see is NRA championing nilly willy ownership of guns, and nilly willy fighting well regulated gun ownership, fang and claw.

There are numerous articles online about wild and woolly Australia having citizens turn in their guns, with and without compensation, not all citizens turned in their guns, but many did, here's a link to one article: Australia confiscated 650,000 guns. Murders and suicides plummeted.

Michael of TPTB [The Powers That Be] showed me the following:


Joe Biden is non compos mentis. He has dementia and memory loss- long and short term memory loss, low cognitive functioning level.


The "shadow" president is Kamala Harris. He(Michael) says there is no conspiracy in calling her this, as she is the president from the shadows. She made the cabinet picks.


She wants to use the NFA Act to declare any self loading rifle(that means lever action, pump action old Woodsmasters, 5 shot Semi-Auto's hunting rifles, .22LR's) as being either illegal or subject to mandatory regulation.


Republicans lose one senate seat in GA, Democrats can do what they want, as V.P. Harris can cast tie-breaker vote.


If the Dems try to restrict semi-auto's- M1's, M1A's, AR's, PSL's, all the way to hunting rifles, lever action, .22lr's- ANY SELF LOADING RIFLE OF ANY CAPACITY- there will be bloodshed in America not seen since World War I, and maybe the Civil War.


The Democrats need to leave firearms alone, just as Obama did for 8 years. Pressure local, state, and Federal LE to enforce the laws on the books harder. Make it to where 21 is minimum ago of purchasing a rifle and 23 a handgun, and everyone must take a gun law class, gun law safety class, gun handling safety. For 2 years after you purchase your first gun you are on a "probation"- wherein a drug charge, mental breakdown, violence, domestic violence. reckless driving, all of it- gets met with inability to legally own guns.


If a gun crime happens involving a minor, the gun is traced and if it was stored and improperly allowed access to one minor or another- then the gun owner loses his guns and gun rights.


Get ATF off their ASSES and give them marching orders to work cities like Chicago(Chiraq) until there is no gang on gang gun violence or neighborhood gun violence.


There will always be weapons. There will always be killing.


If it is in one man's heart to kill another(by man- meaning humans, mankind)- they will kill. There will still be school violence.


School violence won't end until we address the social, cultural, and familial roots of the issue.




I believe this with all my heart and soul.


Sloan, I do not own any guns. Not me. My dad owns maybe 3 long guns and a shotgun.


But Harris needs to do what Obama did and leave the issue lie dormant- focus on economic recovery.

I've now had this same dream twice, but the first time all I could remember is KH is the Shadow President but there was something much worse. Had the same dream and wrote it down with all details.

I told my friend that I doubt Congress will so restrict traditional hunting rifles and shotguns, but if Congress does do that, there will be bloodshed. There might be anyway, thanks to the guy you and Waldo voted for, twice. Hope you don't live near anything important, like an ATT operations center. 

I spent Christmas with my daughter and her family in Mississippi. Her hubby has a niece who lives in Nashville, near where the bomb went off. She then decided to spend time with us in Mississippi. They don't own guns, or know how to use them. I know how to use a gun, but don't have one. 

I dunno, if I had to hazard a wild ass guess, I'd say Republican gun ownership outnumbers Democrat gun ownership 10 to 1. Perhaps "In guns we trust" should replace "In God we trust" on American money.